October is my due date. I’m 38 weeks now. I’m really getting closer to give birth. I’m so excited any moment my son will be here. Did you know that during my 36 weeks, I was dilating 1 cm. Then, on my 37 weeks, i just dilated 0.5 cm so now it gonna be 1.5cm. I went to my OB this morning. I was dilating close to 2 cm with minor contractions. I don’t understand why I’m dilating so slow. I have some small spotting. I also have minor contractions and crampings. I’m a bit worried especially last night because my baby is not active. His not moving the way he used too. So I asked my OB Doctor to check if my baby is healthy. The result was wonderful. His doing great and very much healthy. I am wondering why until now my water bag doesn’t broke yet. The fact that I’m already in my 38 weeks. It’s kinda odd. I remember during my first pregnancy. My water bag broke when I was in my 37 weeks. I don’t felt any contractions at that time. No labor pain or anything. My doctor told me, I wasn’t dilating much and it’s been 13 hours of waiting. I need to undergo Ceasarean Section or else my daughter will be in danger. Her heart beats slowly and it’s not a good sign. Then now, i can tell that there’s a big difference between my 1st pregnancy and 2nd pregnancy. Sa ngayon nararamdaman ko talaga ang contractions at meron akong small spotting. Kaso until now naghihintay pa rin ako. I dont know, i have mix emotions. Gusto ko man i-pursue ang normal delivery kasi feeling ko I can do it. It’s been 5 yrs now kaya mukhang makakaya ko. Meron din akong mga signs of having a normal delivery. Kahit ilang beses na akong kinukulit ng Doctor ko kung isi-CS ko ba ito ulit. Sinasagot ko pa rin sya ng “I will try normal delivery.” So sabihin na natin 8 months akong paulit-ulit na tinatanong ng OB ko, ganun pa rin ang sagot ko. But this time, biglang nagbago ang isip ko. Nagworry talaga ako ng sobra. Umiyak pa nga ako kagabi kasi naisip ko baka meron na naman nangyayari sa baby ko. Etong hubby ko nahihirapan akong i-comfort but I’m glad his very supportive. Kahit ipilit ko ang normal delivery or kahit maghintay ako ng water ko baka ang ending eh caesarean pa rin. So I decided why not doing it again. Malay mo dun din ang bagsak ko. Tanggapin ko na lang na yun talaga ang kapalaran ko. Since, CS na ako nun first pregnancy ituloy-tuloy ko na. Alam ko na naman ang feelings eh. Mahirap, masakit, makirot, matagal ang recovery but the bottom line is nai-deliver ko ng safe ang baby ko. Then pareho na kaming maginhawa ang pakiramdam. Ang concern ko lang eh magwi-winter na, it’s gonna be cold as in super cold. One more thing, hindi ko masyadong matutulungan ang husband ko sa pag-aasikaso, pag-aalaga and everything. Yan ang pinaka-concern ko right now knowing his health still under observation though he said his doing well. I hope everything will be fine.
On October 13, 2009, naka-schedule na ako for C-Section. Finally, I made up my mind. The operation will begin at around 10:30am so I need to be there 2 hours early like 8:30am. Since, its tuesday, my daughter have a class. We’re going to drop her off in the school first then proceed to the hospital. I need to call her teacher to let her know that Riona can not wait for the bus. I like her to be in school while the operation is going on so she’ll be very busy. She will be entertain by her teachers and classmates.